space for drowning

the one who suffered multiple-personality disorder

2012-01-14T17:37:00.005+07:00

few weeks ago i borrowed 2 books about Billy Michigan that was written by Daniel Keyes. It's a great and blow-minding book about 24 multiple-personalities of Billy Michigan. There was 24 personalities that lived in Billy's body and Billy didn't know about it. He thought he was crazy and always lost his time in his life. I would recommend everyone to read about it.

when i was reading that book. i remembered a girl that i met in a retreat several years ago. she was coming because her family and friends think that she needed a treatment for her. she had come to many churches (and psychiatric as i remember). when first i met her, she behaved well and she asked me that there's something wrong about her when she knew that i was studying about psychology. i said nothing was wrong about her but i had been wrong.

when days started to be dark, the symptoms began. first of all, she told me many times she was following somebody and pretended to be like her/ him; and i said it was okay because if somebody had a good appearance, we wanted to be like somebody we admired and curious about her/ his life. it wasn't stop after that, when night time came, she showed different behavior and acted like so many people that lived in her body.

one of the personality is a child that was so proud of her dad and confused with her mother. she was talking about her past childhood that her dad always sit on a vespa and she was so admired with that capture and her mother bought clothes that she didn't like. she repeated about those stories so many times. the other times when i curious and asked her to make sure something was different that time, likes what she had for her breakfast, she couldn't say it and behaved like somebody who had a low intelligent. she stuttered and kept saying: "what i had for my breakfast, what i had for my breakfast errr... what i had for my breakfast was.... omelette." when i asked her omelette and what else. she started shuttered and never finish her lines.

the others weird times we had when we was at the serving, and her face showed mental retarded or down syndrome expression, and pointed at the air; she said "scholar, lecturer". and the other night she acted like a grandma and kept saying death things like she saw a grave beside us and wanted to die. she also jumped when we sit a hill. i started to feel scared and kept distance with her, but a while after that she behaved normal again when we sit on a couch and socialize with people around us like a normal teenager. we talked about fashion, study, gossip, future things.

i never met her again, and because it happened long time ago, i forgot how her face looks like and what is her name. but i'm sure her case was similar with the book that i'm reading now. i hope she was fine and got the right treatment for herself.

2011-11-23T22:45:00.001+07:00

today Jayden was curious with my mole near the lip, he swept it and said "remove, remove!"

2011-11-22T20:18:00.003+07:00

i'm not weird,

i'm just limited edition.

when i get bored i make these things....

2011-11-15T22:02:00.000+07:00

polaroid

2011-11-15T21:55:00.000+07:00

2011-11-11T22:29:00.000+07:00

selamat hari jomblo sedunia!

11-11-11

2011-11-06T14:45:00.001+07:00

Socalled || Work With What You Got [Vidéoclip officiel] from Dare To Care Records on Vimeo.

yes! i'm the winner!

2011-11-05T23:49:00.000+07:00

2011-11-04T21:27:00.003+07:00

hari jumat begini, biasanya banyak ke-error-an yang terjadi di ruang guru.... gw sebagai pengamat yang tak ada kerjaan di hari jumat pun tertawa tiada henti...

guru1 secara tiba2 memutarkan video penyanyi cowok yang ciuman sesama anggota bandnya...

guru yang lain menonton dan menjerit "ikh apa itu" dan ga lama kemudian dia ngomong "lagi donk!"

virus homosexual dan bisexual pun menyebar...... tak heran banyak guru2 single yang haus belaian mengaku menjalin hts-an sesama guru cewek ataupun ada yang sudah mengklaim dirinya biseks dengan guru cewek lainnya....

ada cowok yang jomblo membaca ini? pengumuman! banyak cewek cantik keibuan yang siap gw kenalin ke loe2 pada...

ada lagi guru secara tiba2 bertanya "actually, idul adha itu potong sapi apa babi seh?"

guru yang lain berusaha menjelaskan bahwa babi itu haram buat umat muslim

dan jawaban oleh guru tersebut adalah "so bener kan? kalo mereka potong babi?"

DOENG!

ada lagi cerita guru yang sedang makan di luar kelupaan ngajak salah satu temannya...

"eh gw lupa ajak lo.. beneran, gw ingatnya pas gw makan roti canai langsung keingat lu lupa gw ajak"

(guru yang lupa diajak itu org india)

2011-11-03T19:03:00.002+07:00

i have two couple of twins in my class.. tradaaaa.. here they are

Vin and Vivianne

Jayden and Joanne

2011-10-16T17:25:00.001+07:00

2011-09-29T20:12:00.002+07:00

Today, a mandarin teacher asked Figo, where will he plan to go during his school holiday...

Teacher: "where do you plan to go for your holiday?"

Figo: "go to a mall with miss Dian"

i'm melting......

2011-09-04T22:54:00.003+07:00

You eat, you fat.

You don’t eat, you’re freak.

You drink, you’re an alcoholic.

You don’t drink, you’re a pussy.

You read, you’re nerd.

You don’t read, you’re stupid.

You tell a secret, you’re an attention seeker.

You don’t tell a secret, you’re still attention seeking.

You let someone in, you’re easy.

You don’t let someone in, you’re too uptight.

You smoke, you think you’re cool.

You don’t smoke, you’re a loser.

You’ve had sex, you’re a slut.

You haven’t had sex, you’re frigid little bitch.

You wear make up, you’re a slag.

You don’t wear make up, you’re ugly.

YOU CAN'T PLEASE ANYONE. NEVER!

2011-08-16T23:37:00.005+07:00

Do you know that Stephen Hillenburg made the 7 main spongebob's characters based on the 7 Deadly Sins

1. Sloth-Patrick
Sloth is the sin of laziness, or unwillingess to act. Obviously this is Patrick. He lays under a rock all the time and doesn't really do anything. In fact in the episode "Big Pink Loser" he got an award for doing nothing the longest.

2. Wrath-Squidward
Wrath involves feelings of hatred and anger. Squidward hates his life, usually hates SpongeBob, and is pretty much angry most of the time.

3. Greed-Mr. Krabs

Obviously Mr. Krabs is greedy and desires money. How could Greed not be Krabs?

He actually sang about the power of greed in "Selling Out".

4. Envy-Plankton
Plankton is envious of Mr. Krabs because The Krusty Krab is a success while The Chum Bucket is a failure. His envy drives him to try to steal the Krabby Patty secret formula.

5. Glutony-Gary
I actually think this one is pretty funny. Did you ever notice the running gag in Spongebob where they say "don't forget to feed Gary" or Sponge says "I gotta go feed Gary". Gary even ran away that time when SpongeBob forgot to feed him. Glutony usually refers to the overindulgence of food so I'm guessing this one fits him pretty well.

6. Pride-Sandy
Sandy takes a lot of pride in who she is and where she comes from. She takes pride in the fact that she is from Texas and likes to let everyone know it. She also takes pride in the fact that she is a mammal and a land creature, like in the episode "Pressure" where she tried to prove land critters were better than sea critters.

7. Lust-SpongeBob
Ok, I know what your thinking. It does seem a little weird and curious at first but I have given it a lot of thought. Lust in one definition is "excessive love of others". I think this one works best for Spongebob. He shows his love of others with his overeagerness to do good and help people. If anything is true about SpongeBob its that he loves everyone around him, even if they don't exactly love him back.

2011-08-15T12:15:00.004+07:00

i have a really good youtube video to share with you...

i have watched this video a few years ago..

they are really good-looking and sexy, right?

and then i found this video yesterday, enjoy!

2011-08-12T23:27:00.007+07:00

This is your life.

Do what you love, and then do it often.

If you don't like something, change it.

If you don't like your job, quit.

If you don't have enough time, stop watching tv.

If you are looking for the love of your life, stop;

They will be waiting for you when you start doing things you love.

Stop over analyzing, all emotions are beautiful.

When you eat, appreciate every last bite.

Life is simple.

Open your mind, arms and heart to new things and people,

we are united in our differences.

Ask the next person you see what their passion is,

and share your inspiring dream with them.

Travel often;

getting lost will help you find yourself.

some opportunities only come once, size them/

LIFE IS ABOUT THE PEOPLE YOU MEET,AND THE THINGS YOU CREATE WITH THEM

SO GO OUT AND START CREATING.

LIFE IS SHORT.

LIVE YOUR DREAM AND SHARE YOUR PASSION.

2011-07-31T22:47:00.001+07:00

my friend share this on his facebook page, and i remember my dad's quote...

my dad said that my youngest brother would be famous and rich, the other brother also would be rich and he took a long breath and said, also would i...

2011-07-31T18:21:00.000+07:00

i think i'll crazy soon... And they don't care if i got stress and depression...

i cry every day,

i get nightmare every night,

and nothing i can do! Nothing...

2011-07-26T23:32:00.006+07:00

Look at this dude, he has a good-looking appearance. he is animal-lover, vegetarian, and a one-man PETA PACIFIST while doodling war machines. He didn't have kids. he left a legacy in anatomy, mathematics, optics, engineering, hydraulics, cartography and a lot of other cool thing we just discovered in the 20th century. he could write Italian from right to left with left hand. He paints Jesus Christ too.. sounds perfect, huh? but he is gay.

and he is Leonardo Da Vinci

2011-07-26T23:23:00.003+07:00

2011-07-09T22:44:00.002+07:00

i think i'm a bit strange because i don't know how to greet or have a nice chat with people.. i really don't know how... Argghhhh...

2011-07-04T20:41:00.002+07:00

if you ask me how i am now, i would say, "desperadooo"

2011-06-11T07:45:00.000+07:00

2011-06-05T22:05:00.003+07:00

"even we don't often meet each other, but we always spend quality time together" - melly

2011-05-24T16:38:00.002+07:00

2011-05-24T14:42:00.001+07:00

2011-05-21T23:11:00.004+07:00

remember the story about Wayne that he was pretending to faint?

this is another stories about fainting....

my friend just told me the story that she was pretending to faint when she bumped her face to volleyball net and rather she got embarrassed, she pretended to faint. when she had decided to faint, she didn't know how to close her eyes, would it be slowly or just quickly closed her eyes. when she closed her eyes slowly, all her friends panicked and one of them tried to carry her to classroom. when he tried to do it, he yelled that could anybody there help him, and six people carry her to classroom. while in her pretending, she didn't what should she did. could she breath or couldn't. after they arrived in the classroom, they did many actions to wake her up, one of them gave her tea, one of them gave her alcohol under her nose, and other yelled her name. and then she realize, what should she do for wake up? quickly open her eyes, or she must groan... when she told me her story, i couldn't stop laughing especially when she saw net-print on her face.

other story about fainting is my English teacher. when she was teaching in Korea, she fainted in the classroom for 15 minutes while she was teaching, and nobody did anything until she woke up by herself, and all her students just looked at her amazed like watching a real Korean drama in front of them...

fish-eye lens

2011-05-17T22:08:00.002+07:00

2011-05-16T19:06:00.001+07:00

Wayne gave me this balloon and said "left one is Wayne, and right one is ms Dian"

my heart was melting again....

2011-05-16T18:46:00.005+07:00

swim, dance, sing, sleep, laugh, play, had 3 times lunch, have a trip every month.

The best job ever!

Including handle the bloody kid, and other pretends to faint!!

2011-05-16T18:41:00.002+07:00

hey devil2... i know you love it when i called you devil2... lol...

you made me happy and laughed out loud when we tickled each others and then fell asleep on the sofa, or we slept together on your bed, or we had long conversations about life, love, God, everything at bus stop until midnight, or when we had some coffee together, or when we had our super duper late supper at KFC, or when you made me the best coffee, or when you called me darling and wanted to hug and kiss me, or when you talked about your mom and her?

you made my days, ti....

i know you always did your best for others especially for ur family...

i'm proud of you

i won't cry anymore or sad because you never let us sad and always try ur best to make us laugh.

also, i made a promise with ur mom. both of us will not cry anymore... WE PROMISE! so don't worry, ok?

i'm using your bag and ur super cool watch, i really love it!

remember i always asked you to take a rest? now, rest in peace ti, be happy there, like i told you, don't worry about us...

send my greeting to God,ok?

Do you know why we call you Xiau Ti? you're our golden boy...

we love you, we really do.....

now it's my time to kiss you.. muachhh.. love you ti...

2011-05-12T19:25:00.001+07:00

Today, Wayne was running around the class and suddenly fell down above Wisely. It made Wisely had bleeding nose. My partner in class was so angry with Wayne, and while she was angry with Wayne, Wayne suddenly pretended to faint. His acting was so funny, and i can't stop laughing until now!

2011-04-27T20:28:00.002+07:00

my dad is really amazing dad...

how my conversation with him ended 4 times this night?

dad: ok, so could you quit your job on this june

me: ok, i try

*brak* tut tut tut*

and then i called again

me: why you hang up the phone? and so, how re you?

dad: fine nothing to worry, just want you to come back soon, when could you come back here?

me: maybe on june...

*brak* tut tut tut*

and then i called him again...

me: why you hang up the phone? i'm still hasn't finish yet. what re you doing?

dad: watching the television..

me: re you tired?

dad: not at all... and so, you come back here during holiday or what?

me: yeah, actually i have my holiday for 3 weeks, so i can come back there on june

dad: don't work anymore....

me: ok.

*brak* tut tut tut*

and then i called him again....

me: i hasn't finish yet. why you hang up the phone again?

dad: oh, what else?

me: nothing.....

dad: oh, nothing.....

*brak* tut tut tut*

2011-04-25T18:28:00.009+07:00

bro, when you were born, everybody was happy with your big day....

when you grew up, we spent our childhood together with others cousins and siblings,

when we were teenager, we did so many things wild.

you colored your hair and you persuaded me to color my hair too...

you escaped from your house and told our uncle that your mom's not at home, so you wanted to stay in his house.

few days after i arrived in Australia, we celebrated your birthday and your face was full of smile when you celebrated your birthday....

remember the days that i called you devil 2?

and do you know why we call you Xiau Ti? because you're our darling, our golden boy....

you always think the best for your family....

you bought the GPS for ur elder brother because you knew he needed it...

you were the best barista that i know... you made the best coffee that i've ever drunk in this world. when i drank the coffee that you made, i felt like i drank a cup of coffee from heaven... that one was really damn good.... i knew you work hard...

when we were going out together, that always be my happy day.... you always made me laugh... sometimes you're waiting for me when i worked so we could have our supper, or sitting at our favorite bus stop so we could talk so many things about life... you took care of me...

this present was my favorite watch... i knew you knew that i wear it everyday...

when i got this, i screamed.... you knew what i wanted....

you're the best cousin, brother, friend, family, and everything that i have...

remember you told me that you wanted to live in so many places as far as you want to fulfill your dream? now you've done that.... rest in peace my dear little devil...

we love you, we really do.....

i dropped my tears when i read his mom's notes....

"Gk kuduga engkau pergi begitu cepat. Tapi apa boleh buat ini semua kehendak Tuhan Sang Maha Kuasa.

23 tahun mami merawatmu dengan suka cita, tidak merasa capek dan lelah.

Waktu kemarin pulang dari Aussie mami kaget,senang, kamu cubit pipiku pegang pegang tangnaku yang mulai keriput. Canda tawamu selalu bayang bayang di otakku.

Kami semua berusaha tegar, saya tidak mau nangis lagi, supaya jalanmu mulus di alam sana, dan mendapat tempat yang baik di sisi Tuhan. Saya akan menyusulmu di alam sana pada suatu hari nanti.

Selamat jalan anakku XiauTi. Kami tetap mengenangmu sampai kapan pun.

25th April 2011"

2011-04-20T21:01:00.001+07:00

be kind to the unkind people, they need it the most....

2011-04-05T20:08:00.003+07:00

today, one kids came to me and say somebody hit her and she felt hurt. i asked her for not crying, and she said to me she must not cry, but she dropped her tears (so do i).

2011-04-05T19:43:00.001+07:00

Me: Darren, do you know my name?
Darren: heh?
Me: Miss Dian, call me miss Dian
Darren: heh?
Me: Miss what, Darren?
Darren: Miss what

and after that, he always calls me with "miss what".....

2011-04-04T20:15:00.003+07:00

i love this moment when i could see HEE JUNG's face... even just by skype... looking foward to meet her....

2011-03-11T21:13:00.003+07:00

today, i asked Figo that he loves me or not....

me : Figo, do you love me?

Figo : yes.....

me : how big is it?

Figo : small...

me : are you sure? i love you BIG.... so, how big is your love for me?

Figo : yeah... small...

update: now he loves me with BIG LOVE!!!

2011-03-05T13:37:00.001+07:00

i bought this yesterday and it's really useful!

tadaaaaa...

it becomes board for my make-up tools

2011-03-03T23:24:00.002+07:00

a teenager once asked an old man

"in a relationship, which is more important: to love or to be loved?"

then he replied,

"which is more important to a bird: left wing or right wing?"

2011-03-02T22:12:00.002+07:00

today, i had conversation with wisely early in the morning

me: wisely, you will go to kindergarten next month

wisely : i don't want miss... i just wanna go to next grade if all my friends and ms bhavna, also ms dian go together there...

me: why?

wisely: because i like coriander class miss.... i like you

me: (speechless and my heart was melting)

2011-02-21T20:08:00.000+07:00

2011-02-21T18:44:00.002+07:00

in a meeting, the ladies gathered together and discussed about what do they do when they re together with their boyfriend.

first lady: "i do everything except ML"

2nd lady: "i feel disgusting every time he hold my hand"

3rd lady : "we can do whatever we want, when i feel i want to do it, and he either"

4th lady: " i afraid to do everything, because every time i go out with him, i feel like sher sher .... like the electric current, so i never sit really close with him"

2011-02-13T17:53:00.003+07:00

Inilah Kebiasaan tokoh-tokoh di China:

Merokok, tetapi tidak minum arak, Lin Biau meninggal umur 63 tahun.

Minum arak tapi tdk merokok, Zhou En Lai meninggal umur 73 tahun.

Merokok, dan minum arak, Mao Ze Dong meninggal umur 83 tahun.

Merokok, minum arak, dan main kartu, Deng Xiao Pin meninggal umur 94 tahun.

Merokok, minum arak, main kartu, main cewek (punya bini muda), Zhang Xue Liang meninggal 103 tahun.

TIDAK merokok, TIDAK minum arak, TIDAK main kartu, TIDAK main cewek, Lei Feng meninggal muda umur 23 tahun!

2011-02-06T22:53:00.001+07:00

Friends is like underwear, who can make us comfort. Good friends is like condom, who can protect us. and

bestfriend is like viagra, who can cheer up us when we're down

2011-02-05T15:04:00.000+07:00

someday your story will end with : "and they lived happily ever after"

2011-01-23T03:13:00.004+07:00

this is what happened last friday... (The age of my students between 1,5 years until 6 years)

Teacher: where does the batik come from?

Students: (no one answered)

teacher : Does the batik come from australia? England? Where?

Wayne ( 3 year old) : supermarket!

2011-01-23T02:51:00.001+07:00

today, i found out that our friendship is not as deep as i thought... And i felt hurt by the way you guys treat and assumed it was not a big deal...

I apologize when i was in a huff, My behaviour was not becoz i'm mad... But i was afraid to drop my tears in front of you and made you felt sorry...

The fact now i can't stop my tears, It's really hurt until i drop my tears and breathless.... And i don't know how to stop my tears...

Fyi, I still proud of you and you all re precious friends that i have... I love you sincerely with all my heart... I really do....

2011-01-20T22:01:00.001+07:00

percakapan gw dengan bokap di telpon....

Gw: lg dimana?
Papi: d warung kopi
Gw: sendiri? Tumben...
Papi: iya.. Temen2 pada belum datang
Gw: iye... jangan genit aja godain cewek2...
Papi: sapa juga yang mau... Giginya tinggal satu gitu...
Gw: ................

i really want have one of this robot to solve the ketchup problem!

2011-01-09T15:59:00.001+07:00

2011-01-07T19:17:00.001+07:00

beberapa hari yang lalu, ketika gw naik angkutan umum menuju tempat kerja. ada seorang ibu duduk seberang gw dengan semua blink2 ada pada jam tangannya, juga tak ketinggalan tas kulitnya dan kacamata itamnya... dan semua terlihat biasa saja selain sinar dari semua yang dia kenakan... sampe pada akhirnya tante2 heboh ini sampe pada tujuannya, ia memberhentikan angkot...

hal yang membuat saia shok dan tertegun pun terjadi... jadi, ketika itu ada seorang masi menghalangi jalannya karena angkotnya penuh dan lagian angkotnya belum berhenti, sehingga cowok itu belum bisa bergerak.... dengan angkuhnya tante2 itu mengibas2 tangannya ke arah cowok tersebut seperti mengusir seekor tikus!!! wtf?! gaya tante itu sontak membuat semua orang shok dan akhirnya menjadi bahan bercandaan.... dan dalam pikiranku... SEHEBAT APA SEH DIA SAMPE HARUS SEANGKUH ITU? dan ini menjadi pertanyaan gw dalam menjalani hidup ini, jangan sampe menjadi orang sombong dan angkuh... gw harus ingat, sehebat apa seh saia sampe harus menjadi angkuh.. okay teman2? ada kata sepakat?

it's like another toto-chan classroom

2011-01-07T18:42:00.007+07:00

if you ask them, always end up like this

2011-01-03T00:15:00.003+07:00

i have two guy friends that i share and can ask everything from them.

today when i saw my friend's paunch, i was wondering and asked him

me: ' do all the guys who have paunch will have small p***s? My friend told me so'

guy1: 'never hear something like that, i have a long one'

guy2 : 'i think what dian said was right becoz i read one article and the article said that if a man loose 7kgs, his P will grow around 1cm. So you must loose ur weight more to make it longer'

guy1 : 'so if i loose 7kgs i will have a longer P? What if mine is already 20cms?'

me : 'how long is it?'

guy2 : 'like a ruler, this long' (try to show me how long it is)

guy1: 'want to see?' (with proud)

me : '.......'

that why i love kids... They re so naive

2011-01-02T23:29:00.002+07:00

today when i taught the sunday school, i let a child sit on my lap. And the other child came and asked me
boy: ' are you his mom?'
me: 'nope . Why can you think like that?'
boy: 'becoz he sit on ur lap'
me: ' why can't he? So do you want sit on my lap too?'
boy : 'yes, i do!'
and he sit on my lap... We're happily ever after or errrrr.... maybe after 3 minutes they fought each other.... Grrr....

the most adorable proposal that i've ever heard

2011-01-02T23:12:00.002+07:00

Girl: why do you want to marry me?
Boy: becoz i love you and you re the only girl who makes me want to marry with and i want to protect you forever......

2010-12-31T14:32:00.001+07:00

2010-12-31T14:29:00.001+07:00

the most awesome television show from Indonesia!

2010-12-30T19:36:00.000+07:00

2010-12-22T22:04:00.000+07:00

get stressed, depressed, down with a millstone round my neck.... Don't know what i should do.... God.. Show me Your way.... Please.

2010-12-21T22:48:00.002+07:00

Love someone means we should ready to reach him or to get hurt and let him to choose his own happiness including love another girl...

2010-12-21T22:43:00.000+07:00

Bapa, ajarku untuk tetap berpegang pada janji dan kebenaranMu
Ajarku agar aku bisa menggunakan kasut kerelaan untuk memberitakan injil keselamatanMu
Ajarku agar tetap hidup dalam jalanMu
Ajarku agar tetap rendah hati
Ajarku untuk melakukan semuanya hanya untukMu
Ajarku untuk tidak mencari kepentingan sendiri dan menyombongkan apa yang sudah Engkau berikan padaku
Ajarku mengasihi sesamaku manusia dan tidak memandang rendah yang lain
Karena Engkau Allah kami yang melihat ke dalam hati kami

2010-12-20T17:52:00.001+07:00

he said: "I love you"

and then his nose grew

2010-12-16T13:46:00.000+07:00

today, i just proved the power of pray!!!!

2010-12-15T23:06:00.001+07:00

hey devils, i miss you guys... hehehehe...

2010-12-15T22:15:00.001+07:00

in my life, i knew some people who are modest and who are haughty...

some of them who are the haughty one always boast about their achievement, and tell myself for not be the one like them even it's hard. for instance, the ones who are lavish with their parent's money but never work for earn some money, always show off whatever they have or they can achieve... there are plenty of people like them

and for who are modest,who have lots of achievement but never tell anyone about how they really are, i put my respect on them, feel how grateful i am to know them and learn how to be like them.. like one of my friend who never told me who she was, and when she went back to korea, i found by myself that she was one of the miss korea.. i really admire people who are like her... and it's difficult to find someone who is modest...

and about me? i'm the first one and i find it so hard to keep humble and modest....

2010-12-13T13:40:00.005+07:00

At my sunday school, there's a little cute girl around 2 year old that always answers the same answer from the teachers... some of them are:

teacher (t): did you have ur breakfast?
little girl (g): yes i did

t : what was it?
g: meatball

t: how many meatball did you have?
g: two!

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t: do you love ur parents?
g: yes i do!

t: how deep is it?
g: as my deepest heart!

t: do you love your daddy?
g: I LOVE YOU PAPA!

2010-12-13T10:55:00.000+07:00

if God always forgives us, why can't we forgive others?

they love Indonesia!

2010-11-26T12:48:00.000+07:00

2010-11-26T01:07:00.002+07:00

i love to 'ngopi' or 'ngafe' haha...

how to say 'ngopi' or ' ngafe' in english?

'cafeing'?

'coffeeing?'

i love this awesome situation...

drinking coffee at cafe....

it's great...

with friends around you, warm coffee, music and chatting...

or maybe writing some writing on my blog...

so would you like to 'ngafe' with me?

2010-11-26T00:42:00.004+07:00

Japanese girl: 'oh you come from Indonesia, i visited Indonesia for one month. i love Indonesia language"

Me: 'oh, really? so do you still remember some word?'

Japanese girl: 'i love one word, and i won't forget that word, every Indonesian will say that word at every single moment'

Me: 'what's that?'

Japanese girl: 'Hura-Hura' (with hands up)

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also, another story

she brought a tambour, and she it comes from Africa, when i saw it i said to her that it was familiar, seems that came from Indonesia, i was sure about that...

she pointed the sticker and said 'see, it says that it come from Africa'

and i turned it and i pointed ' seeeeeee, made in Indonesia'

2010-11-19T18:02:00.002+07:00

i wish i was a tough tree, so wherever i was i could live

2010-11-18T23:42:00.002+07:00

so, now the choice is between money or good life?

this is what i found in today's overheard...

2010-11-03T20:25:00.001+07:00

2010-11-02T08:23:00.001+07:00

Can we pretend that airplanes
In the night sky
Are like shooting stars
I could really use a wish right now (wish right now, wish right now)
Can we pretend that airplanes
In the night sky
Are like shooting stars
I could really use a wish right now (wish right now, wish right now)

Yeah
I could use a dream or a genie or a wish
To go back to a place much simpler than this
Cause after all the partyin' and smashin' and crashin'
And all the glitz and the glam and the fashion
And all the pandemonium and all the madness
There comes a time where you fade to the blackness
And when you're staring at that phone in your lap
And you hoping but them people never call you back
But that's just how the story unfolds
You get another hand soon after you fold
And when your plans unravel
And they sayin' what would you wish for
If you had one chance
So airplane airplane sorry I'm late
I'm on my way so don't close that gate
If I don't make that then I'll switch my flight
And I'll be right back at it by the end of the night

Can we pretend that airplanes
In the night sky
Are like shooting stars

I could really use a wish right now (wish right now, wish right now)
Can we pretend that airplanes
In the night sky
Are like shooting stars
I could really use a wish right now (wish right now, wish right now)

Somebody take me back to the days
Before this was a job, before I got paid
Before it ever mattered what I had in my bank
Yeah back when I was tryin' to get into the subway
And back when I was rappin' for the hell of it
But now a days we rappin' to stay relevant
I'm guessin that if we can make some wishes outta airplanes
Then maybe yo maybe I'll go back to the days
Before the politics that we call the rap game
And back when ain't nobody listened to my mix tape
And back before I tried to cover up my slang
But this is for the Cada, what's up Bobby Ray
So can I get a wish to end the politics
And get back to the music that started this sh-t
So here I stand and then again I say
I'm hopin' we can make some wishes outta airplanes

Can we pretend that airplanes
In the night sky
Are like shooting stars
I could really use a wish right now (wish right now, wish right now)
Can we pretend that airplanes
In the night sky
Are like shooting stars
I could really use a wish right now (wish right now, wish right now)

2010-11-01T20:26:00.005+07:00

hari pertama aku bertemu dengannya...

pikiranku - ' cantik, tapi lebay akh mana aku kucel bayam begini... jangan2 deket2 akh, pasti sombong'

hari kedua aku bertemu dengannya....

aku bergosip tentang seseorang yang sialnya yang pada masa akan datang setelah itu menjadi partner resmi dan telah ditetapkan tak akan bisa terganggu gugat.

' dan, liad deh cowok itu... ikh... kayaknya genit.. amit2 kerja bareng dia... kayak neraka deh'

hari ketiga aku bertemu dengannya...

kita foto2 bareng sok mesra depan 3 monkeys...

dan akhirnya telat sampe ke rsa course...

mana pake acara poto di tengah acara ketika aku sangat amat kumel dan kucel sekaleee...

hari keempat aku bertemu dengannya...

aku dibawa ke calon tempat kerjaku yang aku pun tak tahu dimana letaknya...

dan hanya dalam sedetik kita sampe tujuan, dia bilang ' udah ye, gw mau cabut doloe'

hari kelima aku bertemu dengannya...

kita bertanya satu dengan yang lain 'grogi ga loe?' dan alhasil dimarahin manajer 'english area only please' dan gara2 itu ga pernah dipasangkan dalam satu shift.. grrr... mari kita gigit si jon!

hari keenam ketujuh kedelapan kesembilan keseribu kalinya...

aku jatuh cinta pada sosoknya yang sok cool padahal ceroboh melebihi diriku.. hehehehe... bersama dengan putri2 dari khayangan yang dikenalinnya.. aku berasa ada di negeri khayangan... kuperkenalkan dia... DANIELLA... dan dua putri khayangannya DINA dan ODI....

jadi lucunya panggilannya DI semua... kecuali Daniella karena nama dia bisa banyaaak banged dari DAN, ELLA, UMBRELLA , PAYUNG dan kalo mau dikerenin pake bahasa inggris initialnya D.. jadilah grup kita DI,DI,DI dan DI...

2010-11-01T06:52:00.000+07:00

today is my first day that i don't need to work after months that i work everyday until i don't have time for myself... I feel like a weird feeling in my heart... Undescribeable.... I started to feel sad again..... Huaaaah....

2010-10-31T20:38:00.001+07:00

JO,thanks for the ice cream and caring.. It means a lot for me.... ;)

2010-10-29T23:12:00.001+07:00

this song have been my soundtrack when i left Indonesia one year ago, and it's the time for this soundtrack be my soundtrack when i leave oz...

2010-10-29T21:51:00.001+07:00

today, i can't stop crying for hours... damn!!!

2010-10-28T21:14:00.004+07:00

today, my last two days of working in Nando's, my manager said to me 'dian, for sure i'm gonna miss you... you know.. we work together since april and i meet you more often than i meet my own sister' with deep gaze to me and almost dropped his tears.. it was so emotional moment for me.....

-it made me feel sooooooooo sad!-

after that, when i was in Iswor's car, i was remembering every single moment.....

- how i started my job there.. when i came late in the interview for almost two hours. how nervous i was in the orientation day until i felt his hand on my shoulder - it's like made me felt everything would be alright...., made my nervous went away...-, the first time i saw the restaurant, i felt like - wow, so luxury it is-, my first day of work, my first time work without my manager, the first time i made mistake, the moments we work together, the moments when i worked together with iswor and had so many arguments during the our work, the moment i didn't meet my manager for 1 months, the moments he was so angry with me, the moments i called him so many time for telling the money is down again... the moments he was joking and i didn't respond becoz i'm too busy with my jobs, -

and i dropped my tears in the car...

you know what? i really reeaaaaly sad....

2010-10-25T20:12:00.000+07:00

you'll regret... Believe me... You'll....

2010-10-25T19:55:00.000+07:00

when you stay humble, you'll find what the real happiness is.

2010-10-21T21:01:00.000+07:00

be talented, wow people, make people say 'how could she do it or ever think about it?' and stay humble....

2010-10-21T20:14:00.002+07:00

time to never put any hope on you anymore, but never forget all about you... Better find someone who knows how to treat princess rather than trying so hard to get ur respect and attention. Bye.

2010-10-14T23:26:00.002+07:00

few days ago, i had my break time from work, i sit outside and i faced a beauty clinic with huge television for their advertisement.... and two guys were passing the clinic and stopped...

"hey, dude... look at this... i don't see any difference'' - with his pointing hand to huge difference past fat girl and new slim girl pic....

in my heart, i said "yes, there's no difference'', and who care?

2010-10-06T20:44:00.000+07:00

in the past, i was thinking sacrifice for someone we love is bullshit... last week, i realise that i've been sacrifying a lot for everything i loved... Few days ago, i knew, how big sacrifice and how hurt someone for what has he done for his family... today, i have been hurted again becoz i sacrify a lot when i work and give my best, and even my manager didn't put his trust on me... And now, i saw how big a husband sacrify and cry a lot for his wife... And all of us are crying a lot becoz when people sacrify, we ready been hurt and it's really hurt.....

2010-10-05T21:09:00.002+07:00

i really knew lots of stories about sacrifice and hurt...
really really hurt.....
believe me, it's so fucking hurt....

2010-10-02T22:29:00.002+07:00

Can i find somebody who provide the protection, love and caring? If i can, for how long i need to wait for... When? Who? Where? How?

I'm growing up with seeing how my father loves my mother so much, understand her, never complain about her, give his protection and his best to his wife - the only love- and family, feel comfort and comfort around her, and enjoying his life with her.... His caring and love so amaze me...

So, when, where, who, and how can i find the 'one'? The only one who will do loves me like he always do to my mom...

2010-10-01T00:25:00.001+07:00

Love is sacrifice.
I thought it's bullshit, but now i know....
Love is all about sacrifice...

2010-09-30T21:41:00.003+07:00

jadi orang dominan pilihannya cuman dua:
1. dibenci
2. dicinta

2010-09-30T21:39:00.001+07:00

yippppppiiiiie...
tiba2 dapat hadiah dari devil 2 dan 5...

2010-09-30T00:22:00.000+07:00

my manager asked me a silly question, 'dian re you falling in love?'
I just smiled to him and made him curious....
'come on, tell me his name'
And unconsiously i replied, 'which one?'

2010-09-28T21:53:00.000+07:00

Remember culturacupistika?
Remember 7 blink?
Remember our stupid and silly moments?
Remember the best breakfast from Turkey?
Remember the cheapest wine?
Remember 'oh my God'?
Remember the beaches?
Remember the bbq?
Remember relaxing time in park?
Remember the time we communicate each other with dictionary?
Remember our 'night and wild life?'
Remember huudd?
Remember our loudest laugh?

One of my bestfriends left again.... And another one, and again and again.... Tears re dropping start from matthew, fulya and ibrahim, taka, yuki, yamamoto, jade and at the end would be me who leave this dreamland.... so sad we gonna back to our real life again because living with you guys for me is like living in a dream... You like my angels rounded me with all of love, joy, fun, tears, craziness, protection... The way how you called me princess were irreplaceable... Thanks for being the precious ones to be loved. Thanks for being so patience for loving me... Thanks for the laugh, craziness, and the shoulders to lean on when i'm sad.... It would be in my memory forever and make me could shout to the Lord 'thanks God!', and could make me feel proud to show to the world how lucky i am...

Remember how we meet each other for the first time? And please forget how we seperated each other because there'll be no goodbye word between us...

Like what yamamoto texted me
' Thanks a lot .
I don't wanna say good-bey.
All the best Dian!! See u soon.'

Let's set another dream and try to reach our dream as high as we could.. and don't forget, you're invited to my wedding.... All od you must come becoz you're the vvip guests.... Hehehe.... Maybe in next 10 years, we could together again...

Ps: of course not that long, in another years i'll visit you one by one.... Hope all of us can meet together.. Don't forget for the free accomodation, and free HUDDDD!!!!

PS again: to joel, jino, yukko, kamil, yuki, jin, carlos, juanma, to whoever still living in this dreamland... Have fun!!!!

2010-09-28T08:33:00.000+07:00

i love you since long time ago,you've been making me crying, laughing, smilling, happy, sad and crazy of you. And, when i gave up to love you, you said you like me becoz i'm the person who understand who you're. You said i'm so precious for you..... I'm really speechless of your admittion,and you're right... Distance is a big problem.... And the most important thing is 'you're not that into me'.... I know that... Find what you want and be brave of all the consequence that you choose...

PS: love is so bullshit....

2010-09-27T20:39:00.001+07:00

don't kind with me... even, don't smile with me or i will be falling in love with you...

Ps: thanks for not angry with me becoz of the big accident that i made today or everytime i meet you...

2010-09-18T04:18:00.001+07:00

I'm in tears everytime i'm remembering you... I miss you guys... I miss laugh and love that you give for me... I miss your hugs, kisses, care, smiles, love, laughs, precious moments.... Miss the cheapest wine and our foolish game... Why the time flies so fast? Missssssssssss youuuuu....

2010-09-16T21:07:00.002+07:00

2010-09-15T21:08:00.001+07:00

if a boy can make a girl cry, he isn't gentle....

2010-09-14T21:38:00.003+07:00

Di tengah kontroversi 'pembakaran alquran', 'pendirian mesjid di new york', 'rokok al-quran dan injil', 'penyerangan di gereja HKBP' dan ribuan hal yang mengancam kedamaian antar agama.... Aku bertemu dengan sesosok manusia yang sederhana dan rendah hati dengan kepintaran amat sangat terlihat bersinar di ruang sempit yg berjalan...

Satu hari yang lalu, aku menggunakan taksi sebagai alat transportasi ke tempat kerjaku. Ketika aku memasuki taksi tersebut, terdengar sayup suara adzan dari radio.... Supirnya menyapa ramah dan menanyakan arah tujuanku... Supirnya bertanya darimana asalku, dan aku mengatakan Indonesia... Dan ia adalah seorang kakek sekitar 70 tahun dan berasal dari Lebanon yang kuberi sapa 'assalammualaikum'. Dia bertanya padaku, apakah aku berencana tinggal disini (Sydney), dan dengan cepat aku menjawab kalau aku akan pulang segera... Aku mencintai budaya negeriku yang tulus dan prinsip 'makan-ga-makan asal ngumpul'... Dia kemudian mengungkapkan kekagumannya terhadap Indonesia... Dia kagum akan Soekarno, bahkan dia tahu sedetail2nya tentang indonesia.... Dari Soeharto, Megawati, Tommy, pak Bambang.... Dari politik, budaya, orang sampai agama... Banyak kata yang teruntai dari mulutnya tentang Indonesia.... Ga hanya itu, aku juga diceritakan kisah hidupnya yang kaya hingga bangkrut dan sekarang dia menerapkan moto 'nikmati hidupmu'... Dia bercerita dia hanya menyupir taksi selama sehari dalam seminggu... Dan kemudian - kita mengalami jeda kosong tanpa pembicaraan... Akupun hanya menatap jendela dan menikmati angin yg menyapu wajahku....

Ia bertanya secara tiba2 - 'you re not a muslim, are you?'. Tentu saja aku sedikit terkejut dengan pertanyaannya dan bertanya 'how do you know that?'. Dia tersenyum dan berkata ' i know you re christian'. Saat itu, aku hanya terdiam, mengingat aku mendengar adzan dari taksinya, dan dia berasal dari negara timur tengah, yg mana Kamu-sudah-bisa-menebak-apa-yang-aku-maksud. Tak lama ia tertawa seperti mengerti gundah hatiku ''don't worry, i'm christian too'... Kemudian kita berbincang banyak tentang nabi Muhammad, ajaran-ajarannya, agama Islam, penasarannya terhadap adzan dan al-quran karena ia ingin mengetahui artinya... Dan tak terasa tujuanku telah tercapai dan ia memberikan diskon dari yg seharusnya kubayar, padahal aku ingin mendengar lebih darinya... bertanya banyak hal, mengenalnya lebih jauh.... Bahkan pada akhir perpisahan kita, ia berharap yg terbaik dalam hidupku, aku melihat ayat hidup 'kamulah terang dan garam dunia' di matanya dan senyum bijaknya yang teduh....

Supir taksi itu.................